So. I love Sara Bareilles. Seriously. She’s kind of awesome.
Her book (well, audio-book) is a collection of 8 essays, each wrapped around one of her amazing songs. Its honest, its candid, its perfect.
The introduction to her book says what I feel about this blog. She says “I wrote this book for you. It sounds like me”. That has been my goal in writing this series of posts, this chronicle of my life. I am doing my best to be authentic, to write my thoughts and feelings. I write for you, it sounds like me.
There was more than one moment while listening to this book that brought me to tears. Embarrassingly all of them in public. (I listen to audio-books on airplanes. Don’t judge me.) But by far my favorite chapter/essay in her book entitled Beautiful Girl. It is centered around her song by the same title.
You wanna walk into the room like that other girl does
The one that’s always making everybody fall in love
You see…girl you’re a lot like me.
She rearranges all the light in the room so you’re always in the shadows,
Well that’s what it feels like to you…
Baby I’ve been there too.
And I know how much it can sometimes hurt,
You feel like the whole world has made you the ugly girl.
Take it from me that you have to see it first.
So before you trade in your summer skin for those high heeled shoes,
To make him want to be with you.
Let me remind you one more time…
That just maybe, you’re beautiful but you just cant see.
It is a series of letters that Sara writes to herself. Throughout her life. A series of letters that she writes to herself at times in her life where she feels alone, and scared, and ugly. And she reminds her past self she is strong, and loved, and beautiful.
Her letters to herself are heartrendingly honest. And every single one of them is relatable. It inspires me to want to write letters to my past self. It reminds me that I am beautiful. It reminds me that it will all be OK. It might be sappy, but its wonderful. And I highly recommend it.